1 year

1 year ago, since I went back to Taizé..
1 year ago since I met one of the most important persons in my life, Rosa..
we both were kind of annoyed at eachother at first (well apparantly I was arrogant & she was boring)...little did we know that we'd become best friends..best best bestest!

today I made my tattoo dedicated to my grandmother, but it also has alot of Rosa in it since she's the one that drew it!
I'll try to get some pictures, and I'll show you later on!

<3

amistad

what do you do with your best friends?
hang around, watch a movie, eat at a restaurant or have a coffee together?

well, I just realized that with some of my very best friends I've never done that..
we've never been at a restaurant together (though one time we had the chance to drink beer together!), we never watched a movie together, I've never gone to a café together, we've never cooked food together, we've never even been eating together (well this is just one of them)...

but, what we have done is, living next to eachother, close like family members for months & months on a french hill. we sang together. prayed, loved, laughed, cried together. we spooned, borrowed eachothers clothes, stole things , walked around Bourgogne, got busted together.


most importantly - we shared together.

leaving on a train

the secret is out..but I might still be able to surprise somebody so..
I'm leaving tomorrow to "somewhere", to surprise "someone"

I'll be back sunday.

love.

letters make me weak

i can't stop crying rivers.
Rosa just sent me yet another of the most beautiful letters in the world. better than food, money & music.
the letters are like travelling, like kissing (or even better)
AND lately I've been thinking alot about a this grey hat I had last winter, that I lost ....it was in the package, though i never told her about it before!

and filled with pictures, and tea, and chocolate and little heart-confetti's..

rosa, if you see this:

i miss you

My stomach and heart is actually hurting & aching of longing.
I just got off the phone, talking with Rosa who's still in Taizé (the french community where I was a volunteer), and this is the 2nd summer since 2004 that I'm not there..and it feels so strange. Because I know exactly how it is, which people should be there now, eventhough there are thousands of visitors...and soon, the latinamerican volunteers will arrive, and I would've become best friends with them because they know my other bestfriends from thei countires and...wow

but at the same time, I know I can't go, I'm following my plans, somehow, trying to figure out wich road to take..

it's hard, when you're friends need you there, and you need to be with them..

plans!

wow, just 2 posts under, i wrote that i have to see yann tiersen live, sometime in my life..hopefully soon
well guess what! checked his tour-dates todya and the 6th of november he'll play in norwich , england, where I just happen to have a very good friend who I've been wanting to visit for some time..and we have 2 other friends in common who also wants to see yann! soooooo I'm really hoping we'll make something out of this! (and i'm hoping i wont have an exam in school that day, or that i'm on my way to latinamerica....well...that wouldnt be too bad maybe)...

AND, my friend, Maria from russia is coming to Malmö in just 2 weeks!!! :)

friends & bbq

Hey...McGyver just got on TV...great stuff...not

had some bbq in the garden before, some friends, their boyfiends and boyfriends friends...it was really nice, just hanging out, eating together...
and then when drinks are all out, and everybody is really full and sleepy...you dont really know what to do..
and you're kind of half-tipsy so you still feel like going out, but you're a bit tired too
that's the state I'm in at the moment..
but it was a great evening
tomorrow i have to pack, alot. and clean, alot...

saturday, malmö
sundayevening i will be with lotten, drinking vanilla-tea and talking, alot.

good night people

friendship

Oh, I just had a great moment.
taking a walk in the summer-warm evening, having a cigarette (eventhough I stopped, but the cigarettes in Barcelona were so cheap..kind of)..and i called Lotten,
How I love this little woman of mine, called Lotten..my soulmate and one of my best friends, that I met in Taizé..

and now after we've spoken I just feel really happy inside and can't wait to see her.
and she's so cute, she told me she went and got a new passport yesterday, because her old one expires in December 2011, and she d if she will be back in sweden by then (now after she left france she's only staying for some weeks in sweden and then she'll take her backak, and go wherever she feels lik. what a wonderful thing!!)..so I will really try to move down to malmö soon, get a wellpaid job and go to latinameric,a and hopefully ill meet up with her there sometime

and also, we both can't wait to start our future community, the countryside-house with a huge garden and lots of art-projects!!!

meine Rosa

ooh! My Rosa just called,
my dear, beautiful, wonderful, loving & beloved Rosa!

it's crazy how some people you meet just instantly becomes your best friend..
I have 4 (or maybe 5 or 6) best friends, and all of them was just ..instant bonding!!..well..almost..
and I haven't even known Rosa for 7 months yet..

I'm hoping she does what her heart says (but I really hope her heart says to come visit me or travel with me for a while)

and Lotten is coming soon too, another best friend...I'm really lucky to have these true, honest, wonderful persons around me!! I don't need any other friends than real friends!

lots of love,

adieu

well,
I knew Lotten was gonna stay in Taize for a long time, and might go to Rotterdam to prepare the european meeting from september to January..
I'm starting to realize that probably it's the same thing with Javier, and I won't see him for another year either..
and now I think I have to realize that I won't see Rosa as soon as I thought either..
Suddenly, I don't like what Taizé is doing to me..


I miss my friends.

friendship

there are friends. and I have quite a bunch of them...

But then there are the other kind of friends..

the ones who really care about me, and I really care about them
the ones who knows me as good as I do
the ones who can read my mind and communicate with only the eyes
the ones who make me truly happy and start crying of happiness when I call them
the ones who tell them they miss me, even if they usually are these macho, cool guys..
the ones who e-mail or texts me everyday we are apart from eachother

I miss you my dear beloved friends!!! and I love you very much.